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Thursday, October 20, 2016
Goodbye

You weren't there. 

You weren't there when life became rougher when they had already been. You were not there when I felt like the world was crashing on me because your presence once made me felt I had the whole world. You weren't there when there wasn't a single thing I understood. You weren't there every night to say goodnights and you left my nights  feeling even more lonely. And waking up was a battle to fight on its own. 

You weren't there when things happened in my life. When I wanna tell somebody how good was my day or how bad my day was. You weren't there when I needed comfort and encouragement. And all I needed was you telling me I can do this, I can pull through this. You weren't there to tell me about God's promises to my life anymore. You weren't there to tell me like how you will always tell me that I'm able to overcome all these, but you never tell me how I could overcome without you in my life. You weren't there when all I needed was your presence. 

I needed you. All I was needed was you. 

I'm sorry if I felt you were the only one who accepted me when I was weak and you were the only one who showed me you care even I  pushed you away. You push through all the shit I had and pull me together with you. I'm sorry that I thought you were the one I can depended on, you were the only one I can run to and you will welcome me with an open arms. I'm sorry if I felt you are special to me because of all the chaos we had to went through you didn't gave up on me, on us. I can't blame you when you are no longer here for me. 

You weren't there for me. 

This was the  toughest thing this year I need to go through. Everyone tells me I will be okay and eventually I will be okay. But us, I don't know anymore...I just know I will miss you in my life.

"It was the toughest thing ever, but it was totally okay. Because in your absence, I learned that I am so much stronger than what I give myself credit for. I am so much braver than my overflowing fears. I am so much more capable than my weaknesses. In your absence, I knew, I had to take on this challenge alone. I had to mourn alone. I had to grieve alone. I had to suffer alone. In your absence, I realized that I cannot really expect even the closest people to be there when I needed them most. I realized that people can veritably come and go, that friendships can die, friendships can hurt, friendships can be away, and not beside you when you so solely need it to. And it verified one thing; at the darkest moment of our lives, even our shadows leave us. And if they do, it applies more so for people. That you may not be there when I am waging the most arduous war of my ife and so with that you taught me to stand firm on my own. You directed me to be my own refuge, to be my own hero, to be my own comfort."

You taught me to never put my whole trust in you and to never expect so much from you, from people in general. Because people will disappoint. You will disappoint. Because it’ll hurt. It hurts now. And that taught me that I can do it, I can overcome, not with you, but with myself.
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